“i really like you. you’re the best mom in the whole world {then mutters under his breath: well, actually you’re the only mom i have in this world so i guess that means you have to be the best mom in the world.”} -Nolan
“i think we should keep our kitchen like this. then it would be easier to clean and you wouldn’t get mad at us for leaving stuff all over the counters because there’d be no room.” -Nolan
“why do people die when they come on planet earth?” -Ray
“i love you, mom” - savannah
“can i stay at mandy’s again tonight? she DRIVES us to school.” –Nolan
“can i have one of your special chocolates?” -Emma
“can all my friends come over to play Rock Band?” -Ellison
“in 8 years, can i be baptized for calvin?” -Emma
“why is your belly so small?!!” -Ray
“if i was in heaven with calvin, i would start a t.v. show with all of Heavenly Father’s children. i’d call it like ’80 hundred 32 kids and counting’” -Nolan
“can i have one of those special chocolates?” -Ellison
“i’m glad calvin was a better person than me and that he didn’t even have any sins. i have so many sins!” -Nolan
“it’s bittersweet: i’m really sad that calvin doesn’t even know i’m his brother, but i’m really happy that he didn’t have to be sick and live on this earth.” -Nolan
“can i have one of your special chocolates?” -Nolan
“i changed my computer password. wanna know what it is? CHB10152009EEB5281999.” (shhh, don’t tell) -Emma
“i’m a little saddish; a little happyish. sad that calvin died, but happy he’s part of our family.” –Nolan
“i love you, mom.” - Savannah
“today i got sad a little in p.e. because i was thinking of calvin.” what made you think of calvin in p.e.? “we were playing a game and i wasn’t supposed to slide; if i slid, then my team got zero points. i slid and my team got zero points and it made me think of calvin and i think i might have cried a little bit because i was thinking of calvin.” hmmmm… -Nolan
“can i have one of your special chocolates, too?” -Savannah
“can i have calvin’s hat?” -Ray
“can i buy a new black dress for calvin’s funeral?” -Ellison
“is all this candy for me? is it my birthday again?!” -Ray
“why did he die? are you gonna die? i remember i saw him when he died at the hospital. his face looked weird because he died. he looked like he was sleeping, but he wasn’t. when will he be alive again?” -Ray
“will we get another baby for christmas?” -Ray
“I don’t like the name Thumper. I like Calvin. but i wished we could have named him Ponyo.” -Ray
“i love you, mom.” - Savannah
“who ate all my special chocolates?” -me
“calvin was my favorite brother.” -Nolan
“when i get bath-tized, does dad bless the [bath]water so it’s really, really clean to wash away my sins?” -Nolan
“i wish calvin knew how much i loved him.” -Nolan
“what are you wearing around your chest?” -Ellison
“when are you going to have a baby in your tummy again?” -Nolan
“do they have really cool technology up in heaven? could they make something that lets them come visit people on earth?” -Nolan
“can i take a picture of the back of your hair? it looks awesome.” -Damon
“sure, i was thinking of adding a new picture of myself to my sidebar, anyway” -me.
“what did he look like when he was alive?” -Nolan
“was calvin born?” -Ray
“how did his eyes get closed after he died?” -Ray
“what if i died with this camera in my hands? wouldn’t that be weird?” -Ray
“are you and dad gonna die first?” -Ray
“when am i gonna die?” - Ray
“can i take his hat for sharing?” –Emma
a little confused about where Calvin is now and while singing How Firm a Foundation at FHE last night, “He went into the savior, he went into the savior…” -Ray
“What can i do for you, honey?” –Damon
“I don’t know.” -me
i chuckled through most of these amy. especially the special chocolates scenario. do you need some more special chocolates? hopefully (likely) you are smiling too. a little at least. so good that your kids feel comfortable talking about calvin and death. very healing for them, i would imagine.
ReplyDeleteThis IS my favorite post - EVER - EVER. Does not get any sweeter, bittersweet, tender, cute, dear, real or honest than this.
ReplyDeleteThe sweetest: “in 8 years, can i be baptized for calvin?” -Emma
The tenderest: “What can i do for you, honey?” –Damon
Bittersweet[est]:i’m really sad that calvin doesn’t even know i’m his brother, but i’m really happy that he didn’t have to be sick and live on this earth.” -Nolan
The realest: “can i have one of those special chocolates?” -Ellison [and all, I think]
The cutest: if i was in heaven with calvin, i would start a t.v. show with all of Heavenly Father’s children. i’d call it like ’80 hundred 32 kids and counting’” -Nolan
Honest[est;)]: “I don’t know.” -me
Hey Amy, can I have one of those special chocolates too?
Love you,
Em
sarah- yes, this post has helped me to smile today, as well. today was a good day, all things considered.
ReplyDeleteemily- sorry, my "special chocolates" are all gone. still waiting on those donut holes, though. :)
Let me know how many boxes of special chocolates you get to replace the empty one after all your friends read this.
ReplyDeleteGlad you had a good-ish day. There will be more of those amongst the tears.
Sending Brooke your way soon!
LOVED this post! especially the '80 hundred 32 kids and counting!' I loved seeing each child's personality in what they said. :)
ReplyDeleteThey are so sweet. Savannah's simple repeated "I love you" made me smile so big. Wonderful that your kids are able to verbalize the thoughts they are having about their brother.
ReplyDeleteThis was such a sweet post! Your family is certainly an amazing bunch! You are in my prayers and thoughts:-)
ReplyDeleteThat is wonderful that your kids are so open and honest. I bet it helps to have all your {awesome} kids around you to make you laugh {and probably cry too}. And that Damon, you sure caught a good one. Or did he catch the good one ;) Yeah, that sounds better! We're still rootin' for you over here in Seattle.
ReplyDeleteI love your kids!
ReplyDeleteIt's amazing how each childs personality is so different. I kept thinking as I read their comments "she's my favorite.... no he's my favorite..." Then I decided that they are all so awesome in their own ways. I am sure that you of all people know how awesome your children are. You have a great family, great kids, great husband, and a great you!
ReplyDeletevery beautiful and heartwarming amy:)
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