the big purge…

my mind is scatterbrained, overwhelmed, tired, and disorganized right now.  here is the big purge, my trains-of-thought gone askew:

• has sarah had her babies yet?
• glendale 7th ward was pretty awesome
• my kids are still funny; i just haven’t been documenting as well
• i think i may have just taken up biting my nails again
• it’s been 4 weeks
• i can’t bring myself to delete one single picture from the month of october. 
• is mrs. timberlake really mad at me?
• my face is actually peeling in some areas because of all the tears that have dried it out
• this is what i look like pretty much everyday right now:

• i could have justified keeping every single one of my kids home from school today because they’re sick.  but because none of them had actual fevers and i was tired of having them around (yesterday was a no-school-holiday), i sent them away.  bad parent?  probably.
• i’m really proud of myself for cleaning off my island in my kitchen this morning
• it’s really dumb when you know that certain things need to be done, but you just don’t feel like mustering up enough energy to do it.  so you just sit there and let it bother you. 
• i wish life wasn’t so hard
• has sarah had her babies yet?
• today is my brother’s birthday.  i have 4 brothers and he’s the only one that reads my blog.  he knows it’s important to me to stay connected- in whatever ways we can.  i hated him growing up because he was so mean to me, but i like him now.  he’s much nicer.  happy birthday, matt
• i think i may have a stomach bug.  either that or really bad gas.  either way, my stomach is crampy and it’s another excuse for me to stay in bed longer than i should.
• it is going to cost our family $1500- one thousand five-hundred dollars- just to buy tickets to disneyland.  this does not include airfare, hotel, car, food, etc.  it’s only for the theme park tickets.  complete insanity.  we’re still going.
• i have a really hard time focusing right now
• i wish andy liked me and knew my heart.  i wish a lot of things about andy. 
• i  think we’re really going to hire a maid- very soon.
• i have no idea what we’re doing for our christmas card this year.  it’s kind of stressing me out.
• does anyone else know david baker?
• 2 of my kids made christmas lists while i was gone last weekend.  they’re pretty hilarious.
• i started reading the shack
• i hate the music on hotwheels.com
• has sarah had her babies yet?
• i haven’t heard from my mom in a very long time.  is she mad at me? 
• i never called staci back.
• nobody should be mad at me right now.  cut me some slack.
• it’s still hard for me to fall asleep at night.
• ray has so much wax in his ears, he actually failed his hearing test at the doctor last week.  no wonder that kid doesn’t listen:  he can’t hear me.
• ray might have sleep apnea, too.
• i hate not being able to lift more than 10 pounds, but sometimes it’s pretty convenient that i need to ask someone else to do something for me.  but mostly it’s annoying.
• i think i wear the same thing every other day.  that’s annoying, too.
• i just realized my cell phone has been on silent since the girl scout meeting on tuesday afternoon.  nice.  actually, it has been kind of nice.  i got a phone call within about 3 minutes of turning it back on. 
• i don’t like leaving my house right now.
• ray and nolan have several shirts that are matching.  the other day when ray got dressed, he put on nolan’s {much bigger} shirt because it was mistakenly put in his cubby.  he came out of the laundry room looking like this:    
  and said, “mom, i think this shirt is growing too big for me.  it’s time to give it to nolan.”  so funny that he thinks it’s the clothes that actually grow or shrink instead of our bodies.
• i am so tired of crying all the time
• somebody was supposed to bring us dinner last night- and they forgot.  how embarrassing for them when they remember.
• what if abby was serious about sarah’s baby’s names? 
• why doesn’t sarah have a FB account?
• i’m really bugged that my name is spelled wrong on calvin’s death certificate and i have to get it amended.  the same thing happened with elli’s birth certificate. 
• it’s not about “expanding my social circle”
• i used to like going to costco.  now, not so much. 
• i need uncrustables, 5 dozen eggs, tillamook sliced cheddar, eggos,  frozen sausage patties (next to eggos); anyone going soon? 
• i charged elli $3 for leaving the juice out on the counter overnight (=wasted) twice this week; she doesn’t know it yet
• i used to think kids got more responsible when they grew up, now i’m thinking they get less responsible the older they get.
• elli thinks i have a typo on my FB and blog profile because it says i have SIX kids.  “mom, you don’t have SIX kids!”, she tells me.  is that funny or disturbing?  i’m not quite sure.
• i have done absolutely nothing productive this week.  except clean my island off this morning. 
• it’s halfway through november and i still haven’t paid for ray’s pre-school enrichment program for the month.
• i haven’t heard from sarah yet.
• do people that have just discovered my blog (because of calvin) know how funny i [usually] am?
• i am not the victim of counterfeit software, no matter what my computer keeps telling me.
• damon makes mistakes, too
• i liked these pictures of brooke that were on my camera:

 
she’s messy.  and doesn’t she have the cutest nose?

• when is sarah going to have those babies?  i can’t wait around all day, you know. 
• today is the day when 4 of my children need to be picked up from 3 different locations at the same time. 
• i love when i ask nolan to do something and his response is almost always:  “yeah, sure.”  no matter what i ask him to do.  he’s so obedient.  one or more of his older (and younger) siblings could learn great lessons from this kid.
• just because i don’t want to be told how thin i am, doesn’t mean i want to be told that i still look pregnant.  {Savannah after i got back home this weekend:  “mom, you’re tummy is growing bigger!!”  and nolan, 2 weeks ago, “does it make you a little happy that you still look pregnant- even though you’re not really pregnant?”  um, no.  thanks for trying}
• this post is getting really long.  good stuff, though- huh?
• will thursdays and the number 15 forever be  hard?
• should i make a silhouette of myself using this picture ?

 
it pretty much sums up my year.

• sarah?  emily?  amye?  abby?  anyone?

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